I had uncertian things in my life. That’s just how I am and I’m in one of the most uncertian things a relationship. I think to my self what would happen if one day she just wakes up and is like fuck this I ain’t happy id be happier alone. Like its happen to me once and I was crushed like I’d rather break my ARM then do that again, its too late to give up and and too early to see where its going but what I can say is that I love her. And I’d never thought I could ever love another girl but shes differnt, I mean since the first time I layed eyes on her I just instantly became attached and that’s never happen. I never gave up when she told be it would never happen. So what I can say is hopefully she feels the same as me. I know she doesn’t feel 100 perfect the same as me and I don’t expect her to because I mean Im just fine when she’s happy. I prayed everynight for like 6 months stright asking god for one chance at it that’s all, and he said just be patient my son you will and when I was about to give up and I mean withen ten minutes of giving up it happen I got my chance and I’m not going to blow it. It’s our 2 month now and I know it sounds dumb but I love her and allways will for now on. Well here to the many more memoirs to come love you babe. 2.18.12…